Remember in my post about finding balance, I talked about feeding my spirit? WELL, that has turned into a full blown almost re-conversion for me. I’ll write about my faith journey in another post. But this isn’t about that. I wanted to inform you that the tone of this blog might change a bit, and that my focus might change a bit, and I might spend a lot more time writing about Jesus than I had originally intended. #sorrynotsorry
I spent the first few weeks of our little “life/discipleship group thing” just kind of, slowly peeling off some layers of muck, and opening myself up to the idea that, yes, in fact, God did not completely abandon me or find me unsatisfactory to be used by Him. I walked away from Christianity for almost a decade. And I knew it. The guilt and shame of that choice haunted me and is what kept me from going back to Him, even when I knew He was what I so desperately needed.
He straight told me to write down my journey. And on several occasions. I’m doing my best to be obedient. So, here I am. I don’t know what I’m doing with this whole blogging business. But I know that I have a story to share. Thoughts to share. And a lot of times they are worth sharing, even if for that one single human being who may be impacted even in the slightest way. The Holy Spirit has been all up in my life, changing what feels like every molecule of my life and being. I was so afraid at first. But He is good, y’all. Do you see that face? That is JOY. Something I have not had in so long. Not truly. And I like this girl way better than the negative-all-the-time one. So we’ll see what happens, but I needed to just inform the viewers that this blog WILL be about my faith journey, as well as about 23326384 other things.
I’m really tired so I’m going to just hit publish and hope for the best. I’m tired, and it’s not perfect, but I’m being obedient.